Within the last 12 months, I have gained over 20 lbs. I have no one to blame but myself. I let myself go. I allowed stress to get the best of me and ended up with nothing but a pair of jeans and a couple of shirts to wear (I have a closet FULL of clothes that I cannot wear!).
Weirdly enough, I still feel beautiful. Even though nothing fits… Though I know this is not an excuse to allow myself get bigger. I don’t want to blind myself with this self-love. I know I’m overweight. My scale read 163.1 lbs this morning for crying out loud! I haven’t weighted that in over 5 years! It’s like I’m in high school all over again. All I wear are black pieces of clothing (yup, even in hot weather)… I miss my shorts. :’(
Anyways, the extra weight has already started to take a toll on my body. My joints hurt (hands, knees, ankles) everyday, I can’t breath right, my heart is overworking itself and my acne is coming back. Not to mention, my face looks bloated and I have a muffin top!
This past week I’ve been making the effort to eat better. By packing my lunches, avoiding carbs and by staying away from unnecessary fats and sweets. It seems to be working. I’m starting to feel slightly better. I know I won’t lose this weight over night, but it’s a start.
I’m going to continue making better food decisions by planning my meals ahead of time. I’m also going to start setting myself goals for the day ahead. For example, tomorrow’s goals are the following:
- Drink 3 litters of water
- Workout for at least 30 minutes
- Take a break, from working, every hour and walk around for about 2 minutes.
Little steps like those should help me get to my goal. If all goes well, I should be 153 within a month.