• 30 minutes in elliptical
• 20 minutes in treadmill
• 20 minutes of ab exercises

I’m feeling like a whale today. I haven’t been able to lose weight. To top it off, I’ve binged like no other during lunch. ugh! I need help. 

I’m fasting tomorrow. The goal is to get close to 4 pm without eating anything. I haven’t fasted in a while so I figured I’d take baby steps.

Like never before, my ovaries have decided to declare a war on my body. For the past week, I’ve been bloated and in pain. Everything hurts and to make matters worse, it made my gain a pound. When I saw the extra pound on my scale I wanted to cry! I have been doing so good this past two weeks that a set back just got me depressed. 

Since I knew that my eating habits were not the cause of the suffering, I decided to do some research. And after reading through a few health/fitness blogs, I realized that is normal to gain a couple of pounds during my period. It appears that when it happens, my body retains water. So I just have to make sure to continue to workout, eat healthy and drink tons of water because once my period is done my body should adjust to it’s normal weight. 

So with this in mind, I can sleep peacefully at night knowing that soon this nightmare will be over! 

Today I caped at around 1400 to 1500 calories and worked out for 40 minutes. Not too proud of the food choices that I made but I cannot take it back so I’m not going to beat myself for it. Tomorrow, I’ll keep as a no carb day and workout 30 to 40 minutes. I’m trying my hardest to stay positive and not give myself crap for gaining weight. Cause I know once I allow just one negative comment, everything goes to hell and I end up doing things in not proud of. I just got it take it an hour at a time and remind myself why I’m doing this.

I stumbled and fell. I fell pretty deep  into a dish that I want to get out as soon as possible. I’ve gained weight. I don’t know how much but I can feel it. I feel bloated, fat and ugly. As much as I’ve been telling myself that I’m gorgeous, it doesn’t work. My mind has won and has forced me to get back in track(not complaining). 

So today I worked out for 30 minutes—I did 30 Day Shred—and had a cookie and half, 2 cups of lentil/vegetable soup, 3 cups of smashed potatoes with vegetable broth. I feel super fat. I know it will take me a few days to get under my regular weight. I just gotta stick to it.

I can do this. I CAN do this

I’m back under 130! It took over a month to accomplish this. Take that concussion, I got back in track. Now, I gotta focus on my next goal 126.

I can do this :)

Slowly but surely I’m getting back on track.

I’m still the same weight with the difference that I’ve been extremely careful with what I eat. This hasn’t helped me lose weight but it has given me a piece of mind. I’m not going to lie, I’m really frustrated about the whole situation but I keep reminding myself that Rome wasn’t built overnight and this extra pounds aren’t going to disappear overnight either. 

With that said, I’ve rediscovered my love for broccoli and zucchini. 

Breakfast

• a few clusters of granola, strawberries, and greek yogurt

Lunch

• slice of bread with olive hummus
• 1 1/2 cup of vegetable stir fry (more like steamed )
• a couple of bites of some sweets

Dinner

• veggie burger on a lettuce wrap (from The Stand)
• small order of fries (from The Stand) with ketchup

Not sure how many calories the last two items had  but before that I tried my best to make the order as healthy as possible. I should have not ordered the fries and should have probably hold the cheese on the burger but I didn’t. Next time I go, I’ll make sure to do it. 

Tomorrow, I have a gym session to attend to. I’m thinking on going right after work (at around 2 p.m.). If I don’t make it at that time, then I’m definitely going at around 5pm.